leaving for north carolina tomorrow. i'm relieved to leave the city, as i was always relieved to leave la when i lived there. i love the urban setting, but i find myself more relaxed when i got back to north carolina. maybe it's just leaving 'home' that relaxes me. maybe it's an escapist complex (i just made up that term - i have no clue what it officially should be called). i think i'm most unsettled when i start to feel settled. i knew that i wasn't going to stay in la forever, and after 4 years of living there, i left, maybe because i got anxious that i'd end up there forever. i'm not sure if i want to stay in ny forever either. i love not having to drive, but i don't think i'd stay here forever either. i'm not sure where i'd stay forever. maybe i won't ever find a place to stay forever. i can be a nomad forever, but i'm not sure if i'll like that. maybe age will make me settle at some point.
by the way, my sister is now engaged. they already think of themselves as life partners, just not officially married. i'm just glad that i can now call address her guy as her fiance. boyfriend has been too insubstantial of a term for him.
safe travels to everyone and happy holidays.
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